Cool.Melts

have u ever gotten the feeling that even if you didn't exist,life would go on as per normal?

to tell the truth,it's a really sucky feeling to feel..

anybody would rather feel happy and high but there always has to be a moment where u feel like a useless goon..

where u would think, why is my life so mundane?

why is it that my life is just so horribly boring..

i don't need so much of excitement,jus some entertainment once in a while..

who am i exactly?

jus when i think i've gotten myself figured out i turn around and become a totally different person..

does this happen to normal ppl?

are my insecurities justified or am i jus being insanely paranoid?

if i could i would change myself totally..

there are so many things that i would love to do but due to many things, i hold myself back..

sometimes i like being who i am and at times i jus hate it..

why did i have to be so traditional..

if i was to be who i am than why make me born in this type of era?

even as i'm typing this i'm still confused as to how i'm feeling..

i kmow it's confusing but i'm confused as well..

if only the answer could come to me than life would be totally perfect..

why am i feeling this way?

am i jealous?

am i envious of the way other ppl live their life?

than why can't i live like them too?

why do i ask myself such qns?

wad is wrong wif me?

ahhhh..

the frustration i have inside me canno0t be expressed in words..

it's jus too tiring to live like this..

it might jus drive me insane..

as i reread this post,the qn in my mind still lingers..

wad i meant to do in this world?